I'm almost positive I'm having an emotional breakdown.
For the last week or so I've felt on the verge of tears or a breakdown, from boys breaking my heart to insecurities over my body to family stress.
After my most recent psuedo-breakdown I started thinking.
Are these emotions coming up as the weight comes off for a reason? It's obvious that part of my weight issues stem from emotional eating, putting on weight to get away from dealing with issues bothering me.
Just like I became cynical and bitchy to keep people at arm's distance, I put on weight instead of working through emotions. So will every five pounds I lose bring up the issues that put it there?
The next time the scale goes down will I work through my last break up? Or guilt over Pops' death? Can I handle that? I hate crying. I'm not a cute crier.
In my quest to lose this weight I never thought about anything other than the aesthetic implications of it. I never considered I'd be forced to actually deal with all my issues, I just wanted to look cute.
I guess I'll get well adjusted on my road to hitting goal. I better stock up on Kleenex.