I was going to an outdoor music fest in Tulsa last week.
The temperature was approximately 700 degrees so I needed to wear something cool, but temperature wise and rock and roll wise. The temperature dictated that I need to wear the least amount of clothes while staying decent.
This is hard for someone who, as previously discussed, is uncomfortable in their own skin. I tried on outfit after outfit. My original idea was a pair of shorts that were comfy, but a bit short for me, and a loose beaded tank top. I tried it on and decided too much of my fat ass hung out of the shorts.
So, I spent 45 minutes trying on all my clothes until I felt more uncomfortable in my body and was running late for the concert I wanted to see (You should all check out Ali Harter) and I ended up in the original outfit, speeding downtown.
And you know what? When I got downtown and met up with my friends and listened to the bands I went to see I forgot that my shorts were shorter than I normally wear, and that my arms were jiggly and I had fun.
Was it life changing? Will I never have a crisis of insecurity and try on all my clothes before I leave the house? No. I did that on Tuesday, I decided all my clothes accentuated my gut.
But I got through it then just like I got through it last Saturday. Maybe the more I get through it the less often it will happen.
Or I'll just start wearing shorter shorts more often.